Whenever you find yourself facing difficulties in life. I want you to remember you’re never alone. Besides having your father and I who love you very much, you have YOURSELF. By the time you read this I will have drilled this into your head. Taught you to love yourself first and foremost. To trust your instinct, because it’s the truth knocking at your heart. You’re now four months old and don’t understand the struggles we face in this world sometimes. But nonetheless I wanted to share with you my personal falls and triumphs. Hoping it will inspire you to be your best self at all times.
Just this past Friday, I had to undergo surgery to remove abnormal cells from my cervix. It’s been the scariest health scare of my life. I had to have a biopsy done, learn all about the possibilities of cancer spreading in my cervix and prepare myself mentally for this new challenge. All I can remember from that day before going into surgery, was you smiling so bright at me. Then and there I knew I was going to be fine. I had you and your father by my side. I couldn’t go through this without thinking positively. Knowing in my soul that no matter the outcome, I got to marry the man of my dreams and give birth the most precious baby girl. You’re without a doubt the greatest accomplishment of my life and I vowed that I would never take a day with you or your daddy for granted. With the help from your daddy and you, I was able to face my fears. You both kept me laughing right up until they rolled me into the operating room. Those are the memories I remember and cherish. That is what life is all about mama. I am happy to share the doctor called today, with good news. They removed all the abnormal cells and I no longer have any signs of cancer. I will of course have to go through routine check-ups, but I have my health. Most importantly I am happy and I have you to thank for that. Like I said to your dad tonight, you guys are stuck with me. I love you.
Tu mama <3
Aloha! my little angel. I wanted to share with you how much of a daddy’s girl you’re becoming. You stare at him with the sweetest most endearing expression. You’re enamored with his clear blue eyes. You love it when he does the, traveling through space dance. As well as when he makes funny faces through the hatchback window to get a big smile out of you. You lighten up when you see him walk through the door and it melts my heart. You two are madly in love with each other and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
I have no doubt you’ll always have a strong, beautiful bond with your dad. The relationship between your daddy will be one of the most rewarding relationships of your life mama. He will teach you to swim, ski, surf, climb a tree, protect you from all boys and give in to your every wish. He will sometimes be stern, but you have his heart. Just like he will protect you, I’m sure you’ll watch over him as well. You’ll always be his little girl in his eyes, treasure your time together and hold it close to your heart. He is not only the best daddy, but the best hubby.
Dear Annabella Delaney,
You’re now 4months old my little angel. You’re an absolute sweetheart. You make me laugh when you giggle at the sound of your own farts. You bring me so much joy and I have to sometimes pinch myself. I feel like the luckiest woman on the planet to be your mama and have to guide you through this life.
I’ve been having a blast dressing you up and photographing you every second I get. I want you to have these memories to share with your babies and loved ones someday. I recently discovered that whenever you cry, if I just turn the camera to face you, you immediately stop crying.
Your smile brightens the world, never stop sharing it. You’re an amazing little baby girl and I feel honored to be your mother. I love you to the moon and back Annabella. <3